Cassie's Cuddles

I haven’t written for a while, and this time it has been difficult not to. Why? Because I have the worst news.  My mother is dying. My Mum is only 65, she has never complained of anything health related, but she was diagnosed with lung and liver cancer only 6 weeks ago.   Now she has been told that she has 12 weeks left to live. Is this a bad dream? Less than 6 months ago, I thought to myself “I will spend more time with Jared’s Grandparents, because they have less time. Then I will spend more time with my mum, take her out, and do stuff that she likes” Who was I kidding? What an arrogant person I am to assume I know the plans of God. It’s surreal really, how much time I am thinking of her, wanting to see her, and then I ask myself “Why aren’t I doing this with everyone I love?” Cause time is short, we get distracted, life is too busy.My mother is a private person, so I guess I’m playing the rebellious teen (although, well past the teenage years obviously) and saying the facts. If I didn’t, I would stop this blog, cause you wouldn’t know me anymore.

My prayer, or at least the words that are going through my head constantly are Psalm 121. I put the words to music one evening while waiting in the car. It’s a daggy tune, but with heart felt words. My help comes for the Lord who made Heaven and Earth. I pray that His name might be exalted even during these sad and difficult times, and that He might be close to all who call on His name.

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